Sarah Walker vs Agent Walker: A Inner Battle to Find Love

The day Sarah Walker  stepped into the Buymore, she not only changed the complexity of Chuck Bartowski, but she also changed the world around him. Her mission was originally suppose to find out what Chuck knew about Bryce and the secrets he knew. However, What she didn’t know was her world was about to be turned upside down too.

Sarah walker pilot shot

The eyes said she was hunting prey until she approached the Nerd Herd desk and realized that the man she thought was a threat was really someone who got mixed up in something not of his choosing.  Especially how he handled the mistake with the video camera.

She began to realize the only threat Chuck was going to be was to her heart.

As Chuck and Sarah began to spend more time together,  Sarah developed feelings for Chuck,. Since  she was a  CIA agent,  protocol would certainly lead to problems with the agency and most importantly ChucNobody is going to come between me and my mank’s safety and his freedom.  She assumes the role as handler from the beginning. Many times Sarah eagerness to protect him would even conflict with the agency and their interests.  She did not want to go back to the way her life was. What started off as an assignment, quickly became  feelings and a desire to be with Chuck both as a handler, but for the first time in her life she wanted that connection to a normal life that she never had.  Chuck and his family gave her  a sense of what a home felt like. When she was told by the CIA that she has been recalled. It was hard for her to leave because Chuck showed her a glimpse of a normal life she desperately wanted.

be forced to kissAfter several months of working together  on missions and going on cover dates, they grew close, and there was never any indication on Chuck’s part to pursue anything because the whole time Sarah was claiming that their relationship was strictly a cover. He understood the concept of faking it on the surface. However,  Sarah couldn’t help but flirt with him. Whether it was a simple gesture of fixing a tie or asking for a kiss.  Chuck Simply took it as being nice, but it was a disguise for her to get close but not enough to get them in trouble or raise suspicion.

flirtingSarah was happy and enjoying this assignment because Chuck and his family are warm and show her that this can can be for her, and the experience is helping her with building a future with Chuck both professional and personally.  She controlled her asset and learned how to become the normal woman she had dreamed of ever since she was a child. She protected, supported and showed him some affection towards him to give him some gesture there is a chance. However, it does not last long because even the asset felt that a fake relationship was not enough, and the same thing can be said for Sarah, and it all began to unravel for Agent Walker.

Surpised and concerned

Not too thrilled Chuck is talking to another womanThe reason was other women became interested in Chuck and the real Chuck , when Sarah meets these women.,She begins to realize that the charms that she was attracted also work on other women.  It was how Chuck lived his life. The question than was how would Agent Walker cope with these turns of events. The expressions Sarah showed was like a real girlfriend seeing her boyfriend talking to another woman. Shock and concerned. Something that an agent shouldn’t worry about right? Chuck’s mindset believed since they were not really together, he should be able to pursue another woman, but Sarah the girlfriend would not have it. She handled it like any other woman would do. She becomes jealous and hurt because of Chuck not being around. Agent Walker tries to tell herself that it was just a cover and it was not real feelings, but even the toughest spies has feelings that are hard to hide. The kind of feelings that had agents reassigned or get subjected to a 49B.

Sarah upset and jealous

Sarah Walker was known to be Langston Graham’s wildcard enforcer.  She withstood any compromising tactics to get an assignment done, but none of her training prepared her for how her heart felt watching Chuck with another woman.  Especially when she hears Chuck claim another woman to be his girlfriend. It became too much for Sarah Walker the real girlfriend.  During the debriefing in front of both General Beckmann and Casey, she was force to maintain professional but her eyes tell another story.  This is why she finds every excuse to come into the Buymore or debrief Chuck on mission updates. The updates can happen at any time, but she elects to use the opportunity to spend some time with him.

Sarah upsetChuck finally decides to break up with Sarah. something she was not prepared or expecting to happen.  It goes from bad to worse for her. However,  Agent Walker only sees it as a cover break up, but clearly in her face she can’t handle it.  Her heart is in her throat and for the first time in her life Sarah the girlfriend is winning the battle.  There really is no one she can talk to about it with all the risks involved. She can’t talk to Casey because he is all about duty. Her only course of action is to to talk to her mission log.

She still needed to be cautious because of the agency watching the log.  Thus she keeps in professional again. Agent Walker covering for Sarah the girlfriend, but again the body language says something else.

Sarah WAlker's Mission log photoSarah: Day 49, Chuck broke up with me today. Well fake, fake broke up with me technically. Did it feel like a real break up?

There is more of a connection with the mission log and the evidence of the body language saying one thing and Sarah’s words saying another.On day 56, which is seven days after day 49 entry, Sarah talks about their first real kiss, which will be discussed in further detail coming later.

Sarah Mission Video 2Sarah: Day 56, Chuck and I were defusing a bomb today, and there was a moment were both thought we were going  to die…He closed his eyes and I kissed him…I kissed him

Seven days of not being with Chuck professionally was hard, but not being with him personally was taking a toll.  Sarah lost control of her asset because he no longer was interested in something fake . He wanted something real.  One that Sarah could not give at the time. She was not ready to commit. However,  it did not hurt any less. Not only has Agent Walker lost control of Chuck, she is losing control over Sarah the girlfriend, and it is evident when she confronts Chuck about the break up .

 Sarah: Look Chuck, I been thinking about our break up [day 49/56 time frame]  and I don’t think its the best idea.

Chuck:  Miss me already?

Sarah: You know just for the cover, it just makes things easier                           

Chuck: Well I guess your job is going to be harder

Sarah: Look, I am sorry you thought there was something between us, Its common in these situations to perceive a connection that isn’t there

 Chuck Bartowski: Of course, I get it. The old Story, Guy gets supercomputer in his brain. Beautiful C.I.A. agent comes to protect him. Then under the spell of truth serum tells him, she’s not interested, but for me the emotional rollercoaster is a little much. So I think. I’d rather find something a little less common. Like say, I don’t know, a real relationship.

Sarah Walker: Okay, Chuck. If that’s  what you want, I’m going to have to sell it!

real tears

It is not about the tears that she has. The eyes showed pain, which was not really a cover for the assignment. As Chuck once said to her,  Sarah was not that good at lying or maybe she was even lying to herself, who also was struggling in faking it. The plead was not from Agent Walker. The time gap between Sarah and Chuck not being together clearly has compromised Sarah. Her feelings are now out there for Chuck to see and he did not bite. What would be the next step for a woman  who is a trained spy?  Who knows how to handle any situation in the field., However, the field of love is an uncharted territory for Sarah and unfortunately for Chuck, Sarah is not ready to give up quest for the life she wants.

is this a cover anymoreThis would be the first scene in which Sarah the girlfriend used Agent Walker as a cover. She cleverly claims the outfit was just for cover, but knowing Casey is listening has to keep the charade going. However, Chuck is smart and throws it back in her face. Something that caught Sarah off guard.

Sarah makes it to his bed for the first time and wanted to make the experience less uncomfortable for the both of them but it did not work,  lucky for them duty halts the awkward situation. However, this does not bother her as much because it was just the first attempt at trying convince Chuck that the cover was the best idea The only logical thing for a woman to do was by kissing him.

The first kiss

Don't hurt him

The thing that really put Sarah into a depressed state of jealousy was finding out that Lou was his girlfriend. This time she was with both Beckmann and Casey, thus maintaining professionalism is reaching its peak. It’s not what she wants to hear or wants. However, she was going to be on Chuck’s date and better yet she will be listening in. The torture for the both of them is just beginning.  This forces Agent Walker and Sarah the girlfriend to work together in confronting the threat, which is Lou. 

Chuck on a date but not with me

Did this look like a face an agent suppose to have?  Now what does Sarah do to counter this. She  showed up on the date..  Casey of all people exposes Sarah the girlfriend by saying the following

Sarah: Maybe I should go in?

Casey: Same bit with you huh?

Sarah: Whats that suppose to me?

Casey: Want me to spell it? Fine…You fall for the guys you work with…First Bryce and now our boy Chuck

Sarah: Bryce was a mistake and I haven’t fallen for Chuck

This won’t be the only time this happened.  Throughout the first three years of knowing each other, Chuck persists on obtaining something real and sometimes that leads to rekindling an old flame. Like Bryce for Sarah, Jill came back into Chuck’s life. The pattern becomes very similar jealousy and misfortune for Sarah with Jill not only being with Chuck but Jill helping with the mission as well.

Chcuk and Jill

Situations cause for Chuck to reveal his secret to Jill, but before he does they go on a date, in which Sarah has to watch Chuck with another woman in person. She was acting professional because it was her duty. She has no choice. However, it still hurts her heart longing to be in the seat where Jill was. Her feelings are began to grow more at this point. Especially when hearing that Chuck was not over Jill. Once again Sarah has to take a back seat  What was worse  it’s with Chuck’s ex. So much of Sarah wanted to just express herself to Chuck, but she does not have the confidence to say it.  It’s not fair either because the more she spends time with Chuck the more the wall around her heart crumbles

Sarah listening to Chuck say I am not over you jill

When Chuck comes to Jill’s hotel room, he is working as a CIA agent, but he can’t help himself. The more he resists the temptation and not trying to hurt Sarah. Chuck Seeing Jill rekindles those old feelings especially when Jill kisses him. The mission was having its effect on Chuck. He was getting a glimmer of what his life use to be like.

The problem with Chuck is he eventually he would have to see Sarah, and explain why he was not able to plant the bug correctly. When he returns to the van, Sarah immediately asked what happen in the room.

At this point, Sarah seeing Chuck smile makes her happy until she finds out what he is smiling about. This time it hits her hard.

Not thrilled Jill kissed ChuckSarah: Why are you smiling like that?

Chuck:  No spy stuff, no lies, just me so, all Chuck sees is covers and lies, and all Sarah wants is for Chuck to be hers, and it hurts more by what Chuck said. No spy stuff, no lies. She can’t deny it either because her eyes show pain while seeing Chuck smile while saying this. Almost like a slap in the face. Sarah’s world is not the same without Chuck, and she knows this already.

At this point a particular photo was taken that means a lot to both of them and becomes thevery famous picture fundamental photo of the entire series. It shows the growth between the two. The love is there and most of all both are happy. Especially Sarah, she has found a man that she can learn to love every day. She knows she can be with him both professionally and personally which was all she ever wanted.

You can tell in the picture that she is happy. A real happiness that she does not want to lose. However, as much as Chuck is enjoying this too, He can’t help but think in the back of his head that this is not real.

Now unlike Lou, Sarah has a bigger problem with Jill besides learning that she is Fulcrum. Jill was very smart, she thought like Chuck, which becomes handy on the mission. When Jill and Chuck save the day. They kiss and what is worse they do it in front of Sarah.  Sarah the girlfriend has lost Chuck again to another woman, which again

Sarah confronts Jillforces Sarah to return to her alter ego. However, almost 2 years now on this assignment Agent Walker is more and more becoming a cover for Sarah the girlfriend. again Sarah Walker confronts a woman and this time with a subtle warning.

Near kiss 2All Sarah wanted to do was be close to Chuck , even if it’s a simple game night.  She loves being there for Chuck when he has questions about how to survive missions especially ones like asking her how to prepare for a mission with Jill, the girlfriend inside of Sarah wants so much to kiss him. The fire burning in her eyes is showing the love she has for him. When Chuck is around her heart’s walls are completely down and she is enjoying this moment.

With Jill gone, Sarah wins again. Chuck came back to her, and being typical Sarah coaches her man on how finding out that your girlfriend is Fulcrum is something they don’t teach  at spy school, but better Chuck puts his hand in her’s and says

Chuck: I’m just too trusting. Ever since I was a kid, I really wanted to believe what everyone else told me, you know? I’m just getting used to this new job, with the spying and lying.

Sarah: Don’t get used to it. What makes you special is that you’re not like every other spy. We make a good teamYou’re a good guy and you want to help people. Leave the deception to me.

Chuck: I’m glad I have you.  [These are the words Sarah the girlfriend wants to hear.]

Sarah: Yeah, we’re better as a team.

Sarah’s eyes tell you a lot. There was relief being showcased. The fact that Chuck was taken from her and was safe became most important to her, but the fact that Jill was no longer a threat things finally can get back to normal. The two of them can resume their “cover romance”

Sometimes for Sarah women don’t get in her way of being with Chuck. Sometimes its Chuck listening to others. For example, Ellie and Bryce

another break upboth told him that he should do the right thing and end things with Sarah because either she was not the right one or her feelings would get in the way of her doing her job. Chuck listened and Chuck breaks up with her again.  This time claiming Sarah will never be normal. The reaction from Sarah is one of sadness, pain and anguish. Her heart has been ripped out of her chest, and for the first time Agent Walker is not going to be able to help her out on this one. However, Chuck’s break up was not him speaking, but him doing what was right at the time.

While Chuck said things that can devastate Sarah sometimes, he often did or said things that made loving him so easy for her. He had a charm that makes her melt even in situations that are dire or are on missions Whether it is a hostage situation or living in the suburbs for a mission. He made Sarah feel good about herself and forced Sarah the girlfriend to come out.

I am his real girlfriend

[Chuck pulls out a bracelet]

Sarah: promise. Wow. That’s beautiful.

Chuck: It’s good luck. It was my mom’s charm bracelet. My dad gave it to her when Ellie was born.

[Chuck puts it on Sarah’s wrist]

Sarah: Oh Chuck, I can’t take this. This is something real. Something you should give to a real girlfriend.

Chuck: …I know.


Cooking breakfast Sarah

Chuck Bartowski: Are you enjoying this whole Martha Stewart thing? I can’t even believe it. Please tell me you’re not going soft on me.

Sarah Walker: Just shut up and eat your breakfast.

Chuck Bartowski: You better be careful, Sarah. One day you might actually turn into a real girl. {The smile on Sarah’s face enjoyed hearing that}

After over 2 years of having Chuck in her life, Sarah’s mission log became even more important to the story, The famous day 564 entry has changed everything for Sarah. She finally confesses to herself that she loves Chuck.

Day 564

Sarah: Day 564, no missions to report, things are slow for once, but I still find myself sitting here talking to myself..because I love him, I love Chuck Bartowski and I don’t know what to do about it. When this happens Sarah’s demeanor changes Sarah Walker the girlfriend becomes more vocal especially when Chuck decides to go rogue and do things for himself


The fear of him getting hurt bothers her and when he doesn’t tell her about his search for Orion, she acts more like a girlfriend being left out than a handler.  This would happen quite often in the future. Especially when they do get together.

The thought of Chuck deadFear of him getting hurt sometimes proves to be harder than it sounds. Especially when he risked his own life for the safety of others. The thought of him dying in a car bomb explosion was too much for even Agent Walker to handle. How would she be able to cope I wonder. However, even Casey was upset about Chuck possibly being dead.

Chuck doesn't want to stay on as a spy

For Sarah,  her love for Chuck has surpassed the call of duty. When Beckmann asks Chuck would he like to work on the new Intersect project. He shoots it down much to the disappointment from Sarah,  The idea of working together was making Sarah happy because Chuck would still be in her life, The most important thing to her.  The problem is Bryce returns but this does not change anything, Sarah wants to stay with Chuck. Her love for him never was what she felt for Bryce.

Sarah at Elle's beach wedding

At Ellie’s wedding Sarah eyes filled with love and attraction was so strong she turned down Bryce by shaking her head I am not coming, and by the end of the night she is in his arms.

Nothing but pure love and happiness in those eyes. Patients paid off for Sarah and Chuck.

Sarah loves being in Chucks arms

However, we are talking about Chuck and Sarah, nothing was this simple. We get to the hardest part and the third and final woman to enter Chuck’s life. Her name is Hannah, and by far the most impact of the three, but before we dive into the latest love interest, we must return to the scene that was one of the most important scenes in the story of Chuck and Sarah.

Sarah has learned a lot from Chuck, and the same for Chuck. Unlike before, Chuck was given a choice between normalcy or the Intersect 2.0 and for the first time everything that he went through came together. This is something Chuck both wanted and felt like he had to do. However, Sarah did not want him to do it. She knew the game, and knew what being a spy did to someone

Chuck: Whats the matter?

plea to run Sarah: If you do this, if you go your going to be a spy for the rest of your life…Every city is going to be a new mission…and a new identity and you’re not going to be the same person.

Chuck: Yeah, that’s a great thing

Sarah: Chuck, Listen…we could

Chuck: We could what?

Sarah Walker:  We could run? You and me. We go now and never look back.

Chuck Bartowski: Are you serious?

Sarah Walker: I have some money saved up. I’d have to ge us some new identities. Create an escape route. For now go to the training facility in Prague. Then meet me in the Nadrazzi Train Station in 3 weeks time at 7:00. And then I can figure out the rest later.

Chuck Bartowski: What are you saying?

Sarah Walker: I’m saying I want to be a real person again, with you. That’s what you want, right? I mean this is it, Chuck. Will you run away with me?

Chuck Bartowski: [Thinks about it] Yeah.

She is excited and ready. She wanted to take the leap with the man she loves. This is not the Sarah Walker from the first two years. This is Sarah Walker who knows what she wants. The girlfriend that has been so long been wanting to come out. However, Chuck is not ready.  Chuck must train to become a spy first. Although, this is the explanation he has for what was known as the Prague incident.

Sarah Walker:  Umm..thats not the kiss I was expecting.

Kiss at prague

Chuck:  Sarah, there is an entire facility here. dedicated and designed to turning me into Intersect 2.0 think about it…me a real spy, you know, living a life of adventure, and doing things that really matter

Sarah Walker: It’s not that simple. You don’t know who you’re working for. It’s complicated. Nothing is real. *This*

[Sarah holds Chuck’s hand]

Sarah Walker: this is simple. This is a real life… We have to go Chuck… Are you coming?

Chuck Bartowski: [Long pause, Chuck let’s go of Sarah’s hand] I can’t. I’m sorry.

It never crossed Sarah’s mind that Chuck would reject her. She has been hurt and disappointed before, but with Chuck its different. Chuck gave her that figure that she never was able to have. He gave her stability in her life which was always on the run, but at this point Chuck broke Sarah’s heart. Something Sarah never thought Chuck would do. So Sarah uses Agent Walker as a shield again, and this time Sarah is not quick to forgive him.

Its worse than seeing him with other women because the rejection  caught her off guard and that’s the blow that hurts the most.

As much as Sarah was hurting, her feelings are still there. She can’t help but watch him on the monitor when he arrives at the Buymore with Morgan. Her heart is in her throat, and the pain is still there. For those few moments watching him Agent Walker was put away for a little bit.

The very mention of his name gets her angry. Not because she wants to forget him, but because she can’t be with him. She wants to commit and now the roles have reversed. Sarah wants Chuck, and he wants to be a spy. trying to forget Chuck for a changeChuck was never given a chance to explain his side of the story.  His intentions were not clear. Thus, he was forced to wait for the best opportunity, and it came when they are together on a mission. He said,

Chuck Bartowski: You were hurt that I didn’t run away with you in Prague. I did that and I’m sorry. You have to know that you were everything I ever wanted. But how could I do that? How could I run away with you? How could I be with you knowing what I turned my back on, you know? Knowing that what I had in my head could help a lot of people. And you’re the one that taught me that – that being a spy is about choosing something bigger. It’s about putting aside your own personal feelings for the greater good. And that’s what I choose. I chose to be a spy for my friends, my family and you. I chose to be a spy because… Sarah, I love you.

He loves me

Sarah did not get to hear this because she was busy trying to get him out of the vault, but Carina was able to get a copy of the surveillance footage and gave it to Sarah to see. She finally was able to understand, but it still hurts. The truth was Sarah would not get over it for some time.

As Chuck progresses in his spy training, Sarah’s heart began to heal. After all she was working with Chuck again.  He still had the same charms and moral code that made him unique to the spy world.  These traits were the things she love most about Chuck.

When Daniel Shaw joins the team, he sets out to figure out what Team Bartowski has to offer especially with the upcoming battle with the Ring.  He ignores Chuck’s plea to not use Captain Awesome for a mission, and Chuck went on his own to free Awesome from any further trouble, and when the mission is a success. Chuck uses his old standards in explaining to Shaw his case.

got something to lose

Chuck Bartowski: There’s something you need to know about me, Shaw. There’s nothing in my life that I care about more than my friends and my family. Of course, I don’t expect you to understand being the spy that you are. I’m sure that you don’t care about anybody.

Shaw: Families and friends make us vulnerable. Make us unable to pull the trigger. And that puts everyone in greater danger. Just ask your partner here. She’ll tell you the same thing.

Sarah Walker: Sometimes it helps to know you’ve got something to lose.

For the first time since Prague Sarah and Chuck were on the same page, and it was rather refreshing for the both of them. Later that evening, Sarah returns to Chuck’s apartment and all is well in the world once again.

When things seems like they are settling down between Chuck and Sarah. A familiar problem pops up again. Another woman has come to town. Her name is Hannah, and she met him on Chuck’s solo mission, which Sarah didn’t want him to go on, well at least by himself.  Over protective Sarah thinks he needs more time.

Chuck being on his own made Sarah use both sides of her. Agent Walker and the real girlfriend. Especially when learning that the mission was on the flight and not in Paris. Both Chuck goes though Sarah makes a plea, but as Agent Walker.

Sarah: Listen, I know you want this to work and you want to impress Shaw, but this is crazy.

Chuck:  Okay fine, the nunchakus are a little crazy…you weren’t supposed to see those, but Shaw honest to God real life special agent for the CIA thinks that I am ready…He thinks I can do it…and I want to prove to him that he is not wrong about me.

Sarah:  I’m not saying that you can’t do this, but please…..please just don’t go now okay…you need more time.

 There is another time a similar situation comes about except this time Sarah was Chuck’s girlfriend and it is a very different tone

Sarah:  Chuck don’t…don’t be a hero…just come home safe to me..ok?

Two separate  occasions with very different outcomes. Sarah Walker means well and  she cares, but once Chuck gets into a tough situation. She is helpless because the man she loves is in trouble, and the spy in her wants to come to the rescue.

Chuck and Hannah

So, when Chuck gets on the plane, he meets Hannah. Like Lou, she becomes instantly attracted to the charms of Chuck.  The same can be said for Sarah except Shaw becomes attracted to her.

is Sarah really done with chuck

This time around Sarah has two things that affect her. Chuck’s rejection and now he was with someone else. Her heart is taking a beating and the only one she can talk to is Shaw. Sarah the girlfriend has no other course of action again but to wait it out. She tries to be cool about it when talking to Chuck about being with Hannah, and he does the same about Shaw. However, body language and expressions say another thing.

What more does Sarah have to do to have the dreams she desired and more to the point her dreams of being with Chuck. However, even Sarah has a breaking point. Sometimes you have to think about moving on when it seems like nothing was ever going to happen between her and Chuck.

Agent Walker was more than comfortable of taking over, and with Shaw paying more attention to Sarah, while Chuck was training to become a spy. It only seemed natural that Sarah would consider leaving Burbank.

another cover story The thing that was most important to Sarah was Chuck, his family and the apartment. They were all what kept Sarah from leaving so many times. Especially the apartment. She has eaten thanksgiving dinners, spent Christmas, and even though it was a cover, she slept there. She was extremely comfortable sleeping with Chuck.  This was the most intimate Sarah could get without getting into trouble with the agency, and what hurt the most about Chuck being with Hannah, he had her over at the very place that was so dear to Sarah. For 3 years, this was Sarah’s unofficial home. The closest thing to a home, and Chuck took that away from her.

Sarah finds out Chuck got laid

The morning started of bad for Sarah, when Chuck arrives at castle, he is rather in a chipper mood, and his actions were of someone who slept with someone. It was one thing for Jill to sleep with Chuck, but it did not take place in the apartment. They kissed, but made it in a hotel. Hannah actually slept with Chuck in his bed. Here is Sarah’s reaction to that.

Sarah watches Hannah in her seat

The second thing that happened was where we see Sarah back in Chuck’s apartment, and she is like her old self.  She’s preparing dinner and moving around the apartment like she lived there, but reality struck and hearing them coming changed all that. A feeling came over her and we get a glimpse of that feeling while she is watching from castle. A woman whose heart is in her throat and emotions heightened . How could things have fallen so far between her and Chuck.

She has never felt this way before and that includes being with Bryce. Chuck really has taken possession of her heart and for the first time in her life she is in love.  Sarah has come a long way and now she feels the need to find that void that Chuck has left behind, and she finds it in Shaw.

After their flings with Hannah and Shaw, Sarah and Chuck begin to realize that they can’t hide it anymore. The final hurdle has been crossed and after three years they have a moment in which everything is on the line.  Chuck expresses his love for Sarah.Chuck proclaims his love for Sarah

Chuck Bartowski: Look, I don’t want to pester you Sarah. Or become some – some nuisance you can’t avoid. I’ve seen Morgan go that route far too many times to count. And since I’ve already given the fancy eloquent version of this speech before, I’m going to be blunt and honest: I love you… One more time because it feels really nice to say, I love you. I feel like I’ve been bottling this up forever. I love you.

Chuck dosen't want to talk to me anymore

Sarah the girlfriend had been through a lot lately. She witnessed Chuck what she thought killed someone. He refused to talk with her after he couldn’t flash, and her reaction to that was this. Her Chuck is not the man before her, and everything she told him prior to Prague was the man she sees before her. Sarah still has feelings for him. you can still see it in her eyes. Especially, When Shaw decides to destroy Castle once the ring finds his base.

It brings her back to the very feelings she gets with thought of Chuck being gone whether it be death or bunkered Sarah’s life is not the same, and it’s showing more and more with her expressions. Agent Walker also at this point is conflicted because she calls Chuck her partner and member of her team. Sarah has changed and so has Chuck, which is scaring her. Again she defies agency protocol for the feelings she has inside. It was like their feelings are beginning to mature as well.

Please 5 more mins

All the waiting and avoiding what everyone else knew. Over the years they have denied they had feelings for each other, but in their eyes and actions did not tell the truth.  Chuck and Sarah no longer could go on living without each other.  The need to be together has finally come. They no longer cared if Shaw, the agency and Casey knew. The moment came at the perfect time.

Chuck Bartowski: But earlier on in my… drunken haze… I realized I hadn’t asked you a really important question. I’d like to ask you now if that’s okay. Just once for the record… Sarah, do you love me?

Chuck Bartowski: Wow. I’m, uh, in my underwear. I’m sitting in my underwear holding a plastic guitar. There’s a very good chance I’m making complete fool of myself isn’t there?

do you love me Sarah

Sarah Walker: Yes.

Chuck Bartowski: I should probably put some pants on.

Sarah Walker: No, Chuck… Yes.

A relationship sealed with a kiss

Chuck Bartowski: What?… uh, What?

Sarah Walker: Chuck, I fell for you a long *long* time ago. After you fixed my phone, and before you started diffusing bombs with viruses. So, yes.

Sarah Walker: Yes.

They finally found the strength to commit and take the leap of faith. After all the hard ache, dating other people, break ups and missed signs of opportunity, they took a chance on each other. A feeling once they get back to Burbank, they both show while lying in bed, in his bed where she knew she belonged.

Her heart was satisfied and finally her life felt normal. Agent Walker and Sarah were happy with the result of finding love and so was Chuck.  After a few days in Paris, in which Chuck saved Sarah from Shaw killing her, they felt they had to tell Beckmann and Casey the truth. They wanted to be together, and they were surprised with the answer they go.

General Beckman: I must caution you that allowing your private life to *interfere* with your professional one can be dangerous. But off the record, it’s about damn time!

Perfect, they can be together and finally Sarah can come to Chuck’s apartment as his real girlfriend. No covers, no lies, especially to each other. Share his bed like she always wanted.Finally home...with the man I love

In the next few months, Sarah moves into Chuck’s Apartment. The relationship gets tested, but nothing to the extent of before. The issues were more of normal couple situations like unpacking and saying I love you. However, there were two problems that came about.

The Intersect began to overwhelm Chuck’s brain.  His flashes were starting to appear in his dreams. The doctor said that each flash was causing stress on his brain. This would be something you tell your girlfriend, but Chuck doesn’t want her to worry.I am not only your partner but I am also your girlfriend. you can tell me anything

This is a different Sarah Walker. Agent Walker would have followed orders, but still would try to help Chuck. However, this is not the case. Watching Chuck being taking away at the psychiatric ward showed how much she has grown  She shows up at the doctor’s house pleading to see her boyfriend and help him.

I love him

Sarah Walker: Good evening, doctor I know there has to be something more to his condition. He can’t be just deteriorating in this way.

Dr. Leo Dreyfus: Why? Because you care about him.

Sarah Walker: No you don’t understand. He’s not like other people. He is… incredibly special.

Dr. Leo Dreyfus: Especially to you, I gather.

Sarah Walker: He needs to be okay. I – I need him to be okay. I’d like to go to the hospital tonight to talk to him. Try to figure this out. Help him somehow… Please I love him.

Dr. Leo Dreyfus: Ever tell him that?

Sarah Walker: Please Doctor, I am begging you.

happy to be in chuck's arms

Those eyes tell you how much she has grown as a woman. Someone that has to deal with hardship every time she gets close to Chuck and they can grow together. Something gets in their way. Nothing more so than listening as your boyfriend is going to be kidnapped and there is nothing she can do.

Life without Chuck

Sarah Walker has learned so much from Chuck, and he has taught her what life is like with him in it, but the best thing Sarah learned was when Chuck was gone. For 5 days, Sarah had to live life without Chuck and this is the result. Both Agent Walker and Sarah the girlfriend are in an emotional wreck. Something far worse she ever felt even when she thought Bryce was dead.

I am going to go fine Chuck

This  would be a defining moment for Chuck and Sarah because they both realize that Intersect or not Sarah Walker, both agent and girlfriend wants to spend the rest of her life with Chuck. It took a week apart for Sarah to fully come  to grips that she fell in love with a regular guy, who works at a Buymore.  A man who has given everything she wanted.

A Home,  Family and most importantly Love.


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  2. Love your selection of screen caps. Yvonne is truly amazing with her facial expressions … really lets us know what’s going on inside Sarah. The mission logs from 5.12 highlighted her gift … Yvonne doing each iteration of her character from the past, as well as her present day character reacting to her past self. Amazing.
    Her journey was truly stunning. Good job working through it all and getting it down on paper … er, e-paper. The characters are compelling, and we are compelled to write about them, no?

  3. Yeah, one of the best things about Chuck is the journey we see Sarah go through. There was ups and downs but at the end of the day her heart kept her with the man she loved. and its not just love,but a soulmate. Someone that she entrusts her life to and for the first time as Chuck said he wanted nothing from her except to love her.

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  6. Christopher, I’ve been reading your older posts, lets say catching up. This one is one of best. enjoyed it immense. Thanks

    • Carol,

      Chuckaholics was founded on this article when I first watching the series. I started looking for articles on fans theory if Chuck would wind up with someone else or was Walker going to make it impossible for Chuck. The jealousy of Walker was intense at times and for that reason alone I started Chuckaholics. I did it because I wanted my interpretation of the story out there and believe you me I do think outside of the box.I am in no stretch of the imagination right or wrong. It’s just my opinion.

      I totally understand the show was about Chuck, but at least from my point of view Sarah’s story was far more interesting. Sarah’s life was hard much like Chuck’s but Sarah’s lack of experience with day to day emotions makes me wonder if it was possible for Chuck to marry anyone but Sarah.

      • I plan to do a revision of the series to make it fresh because as you know thinking changes and when watching the series over and over we pick up on things that we missed before plus I found better sites for screen caps

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