We begin chapter two with one simple question when it comes to Sarah Walker.
How Does One Regain Humanity when history speaks Otherwise?
The history of Sarah Walker is not complete in we don’t know the name on her birth certificate. We know Sarah proclaim her name to be Sam, but questions surround that being her name because of Sarah’s nature of lying.
Sarah’s default function is lying. It was instill in her since she was young. For example, when Chuck asks a simple question about the relationship status of one Bryce Larkin. Watch Sarah’s response to the question.
It’s not a question that was asked because if we watch Sarah’s response to a question during the game. She responds quite swiftly and prepared. Yet, when the question becomes personal Sarah becomes frightened and searches for an answer.
It’s interesting to watch because Sarah seems to have prepared answers for numerous situations, but when it comes to her life she becomes standoffish.It can be even more apparent when Chuck asks her name. Sarah shuts down. The fact that Chuck is taking the time in knowing who she is was something new for Walker. The problem of course is Sarah doesn’t know who she is. The truth is Sarah was a damaged woman. We can talk about the choice of going with Jack was a bad decision, but it’s not the problem. What is the problem was Sarah’s expression here, Sarah shows a sense of loneliness. Her father was arrested and time was running out on her own freedom. However, Langston Graham took her under his wing, but still the question remains.
With a past is that unstable, how does one reassert herself back into humanity when her life is surrounded by a negative environment. Her mother could of been an escape for her, but we learned Sarah’s parents were not on the best of terms.
Her parents represent a broken home. There is nothing positive in her past she can lean on. The idea Sarah had to store money for the purpose to free her father shows how much stress she was under.
However, Sarah watched how Chuck interact with people in his daily life. It showed Sarah there was another way to live. Sarah’s education comes from Chuck’s way of life. However, the question of Sarah reentering humanity would mean its not her humanity she was entering, but rather she found humanity through the assignment she was given. First with the baby followed by becoming Chuck’s handler.
In essence, Chuck was a rebirth for Walker. A second chance at being the person she dreamed she could be. The problem of course is disappointing Chuck. Sarah’s default function often clashed with Chuck moral fiber.
Chuck believed in honesty. It hurt him quite often when lying to those around him. Sarah found out the hard way on several occasion just how much he believed in the truth, but for Sarah to find out how much Chuck was bothered by her lie. We get a Sarah Walker expression was very telling for a future iconic moment in their history.
Lying was a normal thing for Sarah, but for Chuck it was a no-no. A hard lesson Sarah really never learns. Remember this? Chuck wanted to help his wife get through the baby situation, but Sarah’s need to do things herself made her lie to Chuck, but its Sarah being Sarah. She feels the need to do things on her own much like Chuck, but when Chuck went on his own Sarah would become upset with him. When doing my research on this portion of the article. I realized where this over protection of Chuck stems from. It has a lot to do with this event from her past, When watching Jack get arrested, it was a bitter memory Sarah has to live with for rest of her life. It will come with her in every relationship Sarah enters in. The fear of losing someone overpowers her since she experienced it. ‘The memory essentially becomes a core experience because of the drastic nature of it.
Jack was an important figure for her much like Chuck was becoming. Sarah didn’t show much affection towards Bryce, Cole or Shaw, but when Chuck’s life was in danger or lost to her. We saw the real Sarah Walker. Look familiar?A past experience like the one she had with her father carried over into her relationship with Chuck. Thus, her lie in Fear of Death about him being a spy would haunt her. Chuck goes on his own to prove his worth as a spy in her eyes, but the end result was her interference caused Chuck to be captured. Jack’s capturing in DeLorean would have Sarah conduct herself the same way. The two men that matter most both captured when on the phone with them no less. Time for Agent Walker to work her magic.
What is Walker doing? She is acting alone. She was not seeking the help from her team. Someone who mattered most to her was in trouble. Thus, the need for Agent Walker to act. It won’t be the last time either.
Fear of Death
Sarah’s expression tells the story and confirms my theory on Chuck and her father. These two men were the only two men Sarah ever loved. The only two men that had her heart. The only two she protected.
Jealousy and Impulsive Behavior
When it comes to Agent Walker, it’s no secret she has a job to complete. She is able to storm a news station and take out terrorists with no problem. She may struggle with lady baddies, but Sarah can throw down if need be.
She can seduce and make people fall for her charms when it suited her. She tried to use the same tactics with Chuck, but sometimes Chuck would resist when something important was on his mind or to prove a point. Case in point, the cover sleepover shows Chuck has a backbone. The constant reminder of their relationship being a cover makes Chuck decide it’s time to move on.
Chuck wants some resemblance of a normal life. He wants to be able to separate his work with his personal life, but what Chuck fails to realize is being a agent for the government means your on call 24/7.
Meanwhile, Sarah refuses to unpack boxes because of the significance of what it means. a new place and assignment can come her way at any moment. The killer inside would be called for duty which is the biggest balance factor Sarah struggles with.
It’s not just the killer in which she was forced to use a gun, but the desire to keep Chuck for herself was paramount. Her interaction with potential love interests were classic jealousy issues, but as she grew in her maturation process. Sarah attacked each woman differently.
For example, Agent Walker had no desire or need to invite Lou in her store. This was all Sarah Walker flexing her protection muscles. Lou wasn’t safe in this situation at all. Sarah threatens her, but it’s not the words or declaration of how good of a guy Chuck was.
The stare she gave Lou was something different, a fire within Sarah was letting Lou know back off, but the sandwich queen was not afraid. What we lose sight of is how Lou and Sarah interact. There are similarities in the two that are worth talking about, and it really forces out the feelings Sarah was only now beginning to realize she has for him.
It took another woman’s interest to bring an expression out of her that was not work related. There was no mission on the line. This was Sarah Walker being a normal woman. Lou made Sarah have a personal mission.
Competition is good sometimes. For Sarah, Lou was the spark that got the ball rolling. Sarah’s mistake came when she told Chuck about their relationship wasn’t going any further, but again Sarah lied. She wasn’t truthful as we learned about her training, but Sarah never expected or thought Chuck would come to the Wienerlicious looking to break up.
The shock and awe in Chuck’s choice words brought Sarah Walker’s feelings to the forefront. Listen to how she picked up the phone when Casey calls. She was choked up. Follow by her watching Chuck with Lou, Sarah’s heart is on her sleeve now. Sarah has feelings for Chuck and she knows it now. Sarah’s reaction shows growth. It shows she understands the situation. Sarah’s display of emotions in vs The Truth was much better than in Other Guy, Sarah looks like she is convincing herself if she does love him, which does not match what we saw in truth.Furthermore, Sarah’s reactions in Break Up and Marlin are much better in showing feelings as well.
We shall continue our discussion of Sarah’s jealousy and impulsiveness some more in Chapter Two Continued. There is so much material to cover. One article would be too long to write. Thus, I need to break it down piece by piece.
Up Next Sarah Walker vs Agent Walker Chapter Two Continued.